Vent Time

I really don't want to make this blog all about venting and negativity. That's quite opposite of what I want to do...so I'm trying really hard. Sometimes you just gotta vent though to make it all better! You don't have to read it. I just wish people's decisions didn't affect other people so much. Know what I mean? Why do you get to choose how you're going to be and everyone else just has to live with it? Maybe that's not how it should be and everyone has their own obligation to prevent that. I wish there were so such thing as lying and deceiving. I am better today...but the other day I was angry. Angry and life, and I beileve I have a right to be. This is not how my fairytale life was supposed to turn out.
I was also angry at my stupid POS laptop. Hah. I have ordered a new one so don't worry.

Ya I know. This angry. I was just in a "I don't care anymore" mode. This laptop is crap anyway, I can't wait to get my new one.
Things have gotten better though now I guess. I still feel like I'm living in a hurricane- but what can ya do..
I read a quote that said "There is ALWAYS something to be thankful for." Everytime I look at Saylor I know that's true! Sometimes I feel like she's all I got, but I don't mind that :)
I am also so excited to be taking my last semester of collage. No matter what happens..I'll have my Bachelor's degree to back me up. I'm so happy to be able to say that.
Right now Saylor is standing up at the window just staring out and making her continuous "DA! DAY! BA! AH! day duh. Ma da. Dah duh buh" sounds. I can't believe she's almost 1. I know she's going to start walking all of a sudden and I don't know if I'm ready for that. I keep thinking how she's growing up so fast.

 

And of course, here are a couple videos.